"Mom, stop asking me that..."

"Hey Sam, are you sure you want to go to Preschool already," Mommy says to her baby. "Mom, stop asking me that (rolled eyes and a sigh follows), " says Sam as he get's ready for his first day of "tool" as he calls it.

Friday was his big open house at preschool. I made Rob take the day off and go with me, and we took him in and met his teachers and watched him play. It was so neat to see him interact with other people, although I found myself having to step back and release control a bit. I'd be thinking, "man they are filling his cup up too full... he's going to have milk EVERYWHERE!" or "Why is that teacher not realizing that girl just took Sam's toy from him?!" And then I realized, that's what school is, it's teaching him to be a big boy and it will all be okay... It was the saddest day of my life as a mother... that is until this morning when I dropped him off at the door and had to go get in my car~ alone.

So I've had some time to reflect on it all this morning and I'm going to be okay I think. I'll be honest, I cried the whole way to work, but then I stopped, took a breath and realized that this is why we have kids~ to teach them to be good people that are self sufficient and leaders. I just wasn't ready so soon I guess. Okay, I'm crying again... that's all for now!